Hello All,
Thinks it's been a few days. Last week was a good one, did ChaLEAN every day but, holiday weekends always kick my butt.
I ate out, I drank pop and I am finding out slowly but surely that drinking my Diet Coke really makes me crave other things. So....shame, on me!!!
Monday was the 4th of July, I was actually excited to get up an exercise.....ha, yah right, didn't happen, so I hated myself all day because of it. Well, then came Tuesday, do you think I got up that morning?....Well, guess again, I am pathetic! And you know what, my whole day was shot to hell because of it. I stopped at McDonalds, yah, I even got a Diet Coke. I am so ashamed! Then, I had a bag, just a small bag, but it was a bag of peanut M&M's, what was I thinking?....but not done....I worked late, and Heather has candy in her office for sale, well every time I walked by I heard this little voice, didn't know what it was at first but then....a 3 Musketeer's happened to jump in my hand AND into my mouth, I knew right away, that it was the candy talking!!! DAMIT....and I still didn't stop there, went home, and to top the freaking day off, I had some nacho cheese with some tortilla chips, and some Wheaties w/ milk...great combo aye? So, what did I learn from this?.....excises in the morning, it makes for better choices throughout the day.
I am very upset with myself, but I am also somewhat pleased because last night (the night of the BAD day), I said, screw it, just start ChaLEAN on Monday, you have already missed two days! So...this morning when my alarm went off, I pretended to ignore it, but then the sick feeling came to my stomach, and even though I laid there for an hour tossing and turning, I got up at 7:00 am and did the workout. I did only Burn Circuit 1, but I did do something.
I am still finding it hard to even believe in myself. When I look in the mirror, at pictures, or just start thinking about losing as much weight as I need to, I want to give up. I have to talk to myself A LOT to even make it through a day. But, it is what it is, right?
This is a quick one, but I wanted to get something in here for all to read so I could confess for all the naughties that I did. Hope you enjoy.
Have a great week!
Fluffy
